Celebrating Kunal, every day :-*

I was quite excited for this bday. It was going to be the first time I spend majority of my time with you, and alot of that just the two of us.

I dreamt it as coming from this US trip and us meeting, being the cozy and snuggling all day long.

But, as uncertain as this world gets, we didn’t have it our way. We have never been this far apart before. This is actually saat samundar paar!

Before the trip I was just happy it’s happening and a bit in that mindset of I need to do a lot of things right.

All of that aside, I just knew I’d miss you so much. Heartachingly miss you. And I do, I really really do. If I haven’t said it today, here it is – I miss you Kunal!!!

The missing part feels different though.

Since last to last Sunday, it has been just new experiences almost every few hours. It’s been one thing or the other, and I am just learning a lot of things at once, and it feels great. It’s like reading facts on reels (tongue in mouth), but instead you walk around and take more time haha xD (did you roll your eyes?)

It’s the dopamine rush and the adrenaline like it happened omw to SF. So many things going on haha.

And no, I am not complaining. It’s going great and like you said, this is cool. It is cool.

Because I keep having all the new experiences constantly, my first few thoughts are that what would Kunal do here.

I am like Aditya in Jab We met. Kahin bhi fasta hu to sochta hu, geet yahan hoti to kya karti? And exactly wahi karta hu.

For me it goes beyond problems. Just every small thing. My bags, my flight, my layover, my landing, my roaming around, food, work – everything!

I looked at these tulips and thought about how you’d have noticed it way before I did. And how you’d think of maybe growing it in your balcony, if possible.

I looked at the riverwalk and thought about how much fun you’d have running here. And how beautiful you’d look with the wind in your hair.

I saw coffee shops and didn’t step in. But then I thought if Kunal were here, he’d have and got me a coffee I’d actually like. Or atleast tried to. These folks are the worst.

I looked at the skydeck and thought how you’d notice the smallest buildings, and then you’d tell me where our stay is. I’d have loved seeing that view getting prettier in your eyes.

And above all that. I love making a mental note of telling you some xyz happened. I forget a few things here and there, and whenever I remember, you hear about it. But that’s because you’re so so interested. And you don’t know how less lonely so much safe it makes me feel.

You know if my flight would be delayed, and whether it has landed or where it’s flying over and what not. You take that effort.

You find me a place to eat, and places to go to. And you’re excited on my behalf. And you hear every word I put through these fiber optics. Every.

You don’t know how warm it makes me Kunal. If my heart was a candle, it’d melt everyday, only to go back in the shape of the best memory I have of yours.

If I were you, I’d be so competitive, because I’d know I am the best boyrfriend every xD. I get why you’re at games hahahaha

These newer experiences has just made me feel like you’re with me. And we’re experiencing it together, and all because you give your 100% attention to every syllable my mouth drops.

And sure, this will change if it were to happen for a few more times, and it’d go back to the regular missing you. Like how I miss you in Bangalore.

I know for a fact that I miss you a bit more here than in regular experiences.

Only because this is my dream. That you and I will go different places and look at things and find beauty in things in our own way. And I want to look at all things pretty as a reflection in your eye. And then just give you a big tight hug because we just had a new beautiful thing to look at.

One day, we’ll make these dreams come true. We’ll go andaman and all other places you want to go and we’ll have the time of our life.

All this, so that I can wrap my arms around you, feel your warmth and call it a day.

It’s a big dream! And I know we’ll achieve it!

1 month past 2 years it iss!!! So much has happened in the last one month, but we’ll be the only constant, always.

I love you, always ❤ ❤