We have now entered 20 months, done with teen months!! This is some celebration in itself!!! Congratulations on now entering matured months hahaha xD

Just like what you expect from teenagers, I did expect some jhagde, some “i dont want to talk to you”, some time in silence and some drama from this relationship when we got started.

More in the pre-teens, but I thought it might start slowly from there and then continue further.

To my biggest surprise, not one ugly fight. Debates, yes. Different opinions, yes. Chhote more short-lives pne two fights but we made up but nothing ugly really.

Another defining teenage quality has been insecurities and finding things ugly. Do I have enough? This does not look good. This doesn’t suit me. I should hide it. Cover it.

When we got started I adored you so much. A lottt!! And I thought ki haan, you get to know a person more and there are things you don’t like about them, just like how it is with almost everyone I know in my life. And it’s okay.

But most of the times, I have found way too many dislikes and then ended up disliking a part of the person as well. Such a teenage thing to do right.

I was afraid of this phase too. What if I discover something that’s a huge no-no. What if he does. What if he stops liking me and how I look. Can he see the hair between my eyebrows and on my lips. Or how I look with a runny nose. What if he hears me fart one day.

You put so much of this to ease. All these thoughts are now ancient to me. It’s not that you’re ignorant to notice. But you are not bothered by it. Because you think it’s natural and it’s cool. You don’t make me feel conscious. Rather really beautiful, really really beautiful.

I have started liking myself much more now. I have more courage to get ready and dressed up and look good. I know my faults, but I am not insecure anymore. And your indifferent behaviour makes me feel super confident.

I hope I do this to you as well. I love you a lot and you’re literally a chand ka tukda to me.

And again, I am really sorry for the white odhani jaanu. When you came in wearing the kurta, I got very happy but I saw the look on your face and thought I should give the dupatta first. Then that got you even more disappointed. I went looking for white dupatta in other rooms around us but no one had it sadly. Then Jay had changed into some other bottom and I thought maybe this will enhance what you’re wearing even more and it really did. But you were still not happy, so I thought I’ll tell you ki oh maybe we’ll get it more fitted and what not. I don’t know I just couldn’t turn it around at the moment. But the colour looked so good on you, and you carried it so well jaanu. Everyone liked how you looked love. I toh loved it, loveddd itttt!!! And our photo in that outfit is now one of my top favourite photos of all times ❤ ❤ <3. Shayad sachme nazar lag gayi aapko my sweetu.

And all other looks of course. Indian wear + Kunal is epic. Actually, anything you wear is epic. Just you is also very epic. (and so many other things hehehehehehehehehehehehheheheh)

Ofcourse, other very zor se defining characteristic of teenage is ego. So much ego. Why should I do it first? Why should I ask? Why should I adjust?

I didn’t feel this at all, right from the start. Rather, we both want to surprise each other, give each other gifts or experiences. You of course are way too good at this. My haath ke bane gifts look so good in my mind and then because I have two left hands, it just turns out below avg. But after sometime I happen to like them, ngl xD

But not a day of ego that I experienced in this whole time. And nor have I felt that from you. You have been doing things I have not asked, nor done them myself and have never even imagined. And I can’t tell you how loved I feel all the time.

Jealousy is also an emotion for the teens, I guess we can say it starts there. You have confided in me a few times and that has been 100% and completely my fault and my fault only. And I am extremely sorry about that.

You have never made me feel that way, because you take care of all that too, where I have been a miss sadly. I promise to be better at this Kunal. It’s not that I forget, but sometimes I am in my own head and I don’t realise. Again, my fault, but I am getting better I promise.

A very huge thing teens do is wanting space or wanting time, or the please don’t talk to me, leave me alone thing.

I feared this going to into long distance. What if we fight – I do know you need sometime when you’re angry and I respect that. But I did not want that to happen in the first place.

So far I have managed to not drive you that crazy and you to have been such a darling to me. Always motivating, caring, sending me food and things for the house and taking out time to talk to me everyday. This was never my imagination of long distance at all. You have changed it Kunal, you have changed it. You’re the best!!!

So now that our relationship is now entering whole adult months, what do we expect? We haven’t shown the typical teenage emotions. So is it pigmentation? No more getting tall? Dark circles?

I guess. The pigment of our love has never been a deeper red, and it’s only getting deeper. Not darker to black, just deeper, red love.

We already have the teenage growth stretch marks, going this tall into long distance. Next is only coming closer, not any more farther.

While I have given those bags under the eyes two both of us, we’ll also be carrying travel bags and taking round trips around country, the world and someday around a pit of fire.

Also will come more stability, security, happiness, shaping the future, building a life and lots and lots and lots of love.

And aise hi, one day we’ll be entering teenage years, and completing teenage years too!!

I love you with all my heart, body and soul Kunal. I wish I was there with you to heal you from the stupid headache jaanu. I feel so helpless right now. I wish you feel better faster.

Happy 20th my jaanuuu. I love you loads and loadsssss!!!!!!