Hello and wlecome back to my shitposting hehe. this month I am so unprepared and I am absolutely ashamed of myself. AND I DIDN’T STICK TO THE OG IDEA OF THIS POST – because I think this is a better way to tell you that i love you

So, starting of with how I feel today – I love you, no surprises

But, how was I feeling before? there’s no wayback machine to tell this but I can maybe say my side of it

To yes, Pepper has been quite a matchmaker, bringing spice in my life hehehehe.

Wo pehli baar, jab hum mile – tab it was a nice conversation about some event we were working on together. You did not eat lunch that day and I had some of my extra. Hum baithe, and baate kuch ankahi si, kuch ansuni si hone lagi!

I mean, you shared all these cool details about yourself and what not and I thought kaun hai yeh, jisne koi bakwas nahi ki? who’s he? Aisa laga ki wow Kunal is such a cool and nice person. We’ll hangout more!!

And then we talked about books. I mean you did, I was just ki oh I used to before, such a wannabe. But you were still the sweetest and shared with me books to read!

I read my first Hindi+Poetry book, and I liked it! And main shayar to nahi, magar ae haseen, jabse we started discussing what some these mean to you, and what it meant for me – i started like it. and you!

Phir hum milne lage, milte rahe. One day you told me that if I were Mahabharat character I’d be someone (i dont remember this now!) but you told that’s because I’m witty! and that made me so happyyyyyy!!! you had me at witty and I forgot what you tagged me as hehehehehehe

And then you dropped a note when I was sad. And maine bhi likhe jo khat tujhe, book lautate waqt – i started cherishing our friendship so much. And then you’d bring me Chocolate lime juice, Ice cream toffeeyan – just aisehi. It was so sweet of you. And you’d bring it for others to haha xD omg I cant get over how sweet you areeeee!!!

And while I would literally find your mithi boliyaan so adorable – i had a stupid commitment. So i’d always say nahi nahi, abhi nahin when you’d ask for a movie or a play – and I’d genuinely feel bad.

And then one day you asked me if you could walk me to the metro. So that we could talk. And i was so elated, but aapko kaun batata ki dil se jisko maan raha thha apne dil ki raani wo, aur kisi pe hi trust karti thhi.

I got a hint, but I cherished the friendship. Phir baate, mulkate, hum se bhi hoti thhi. And maybe there was a hope ki ghul milenge, aaj nai to kal! Everyday lunch, and just coming to talk to you, working together – it felt amazing! I liked coming to office because you’d always be there!

and you’d wait till my work is done to leave, or even someone else in the team. Aap jaisa koi mere team me aaye to baat ban jaaye! But aap slightly different team se bhi max help karte thhe! MAX!!!!

and then 2023 Nov I actually missed having you in the office, you were home for Diwali. I did a few wfhs tabhi, qki mujhko yaad sataye teri haaye haaye yaad sataye teri.

But you’d send me updated from the cute wedding you were attending, and I’d be so invested, but still torn between whether to lead you on or to just talk limited. But I’d love all those updates for sure.

And then you came back, and then we all went for the Della trip. I was so happy to come with you in the car – and everywhere there too! Just the best person to be with. The few hrs you were away for chakna shopping, i was dhundti phir rahi, yahan se wahan. I did wish that aap mujhko awaz do, and you did call me, for the swimming costume. And then I asked you tum kahan. And then you came in some time, saying hum yahan.

And then I was again sitting next to you the whole time, the whole talking session. And absolutely adorable person that you are. Main agar kahu, tumsa haseen, kayanat me, nahi hai kahin – it wouldnt be a lie. You were so good. And I was in awe.

The next day it was us vs the della dares. And you were with me through and through. mere haath me tera haath ho, and saare activities paar ho. and the cycling was also soo cuteee. You didn’t give up for a minute on me. Also, our first cute picture together!!

And then came the dreaded part. And for that gustakhi maaf kar de, pls jaane bhi de jo bhi hua. I know you have but I have to say sorry. it was not nice.

It pained me to see you pour your heart out and I couldn’t tell you what happened pichle mahine ki 26 ko, because that’d have worsened it. But it was a deep conversation.

And then the next morning hum laut chale. You didn’t change a bit towards me. I was still sooo comfortable around you.

Fast forward to all the games we had to decide for the sports day. And I started realising ki tum chup chupke (or not) jab aise dekhte ho, achhe lagte ho. And then I started feeling so attracted to you Kunal. oh my god. ishq ki chingaariyon ko, phir hawa dene lage.

And then I felt like kya tumhe chum lu main? (with consent ofc) but just so attracted to you. so attracted.

And then came the lovely wfhsss. Koi nahi h kamre me, kya hasi mila h pal. But the very first time was zerooo sharaaaratt and just plain watching fun moviesss. The electricity in the room wasssssss

I mean the phool barsana, the aarti…. uff (i have never said uff in my entire life, but yes, UFFF!) And it was sooo cute, the whole meet up.

And I remember going home and texting Pingu and Niki – that I like you sooo muchhh and both of them being soo happy about it. And I was alsooo very happyyy. You have always made me sooo happyyyyy.

And then office me I just wanted to spend time with you, because NOTICE PERIOD. And the best notice period I will ever haveee. Because such a warm goodbye, who’d have thought was the warmest welcome. I DID. BECAUSE I LIKED YOU SOOO MUCHHHH.

All those days were just so cutee. The pre-confession part where I know I am so deeply in awe of you. Unn dino, dil meraa, mujhse thha keh raha, tuuu khawaaab sajaaaa. And maine bht khawab sajaayee.

And then the 2nd WFH. 15th March, 2024. The whole day just happened and then I was oh kabhi alvida na kehna. And then you said Drishti I want to tell you something.

NO, MISTER. I WANT TO. because you already have. And I like you Kunal, and I want to just look in your eyes and do things to you hehehehehe

And so magical. Beautiful songs in the background, and the two of us just expressing our feelings in the best way possible then. What a day.

And then to din bhar kare baate hum, phir bhi lageee, baatr adhuri aaj kal phase happened. And it was all just so dreamy, and I was waiting for the honeymoon period to be done.

But it never got done. It still is honeymoon. The whole year of har shaam aankho par tera aanchal lehraaye to phir milenge chalte chalte – it just became more and more special.

The birthdays, the dates, the trips, the festivals and weddings – you never to cease to make me happy Kunal.

Everything feels better with you, and tujh sang to sukhi roti bhi bhaaye Kunal :-*. You are the spice, the calm, the fun, the excitement, the love, the home (and more).

I’ll always remember the day you said you love me and when I said I do too. And I am grateful to be in a LDR with you, because you’re worth missing. I am fortune to have someone so great to miss. Because of all you have done, still do each day and the promises of forever.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MY JAAN. YOU’RE MY FAVOURITE PERSON EVER.

and I am so so so sorrryyyyyyyyyyyy. pls accept my sorries, i promise to make up for them my love.